NO!

I can't find inspiration to write anything.

It makes me so sad. I just want to write something long and meaningful. I will keep searching.

:)

I'm so happy that I feel like nothing can bring me down. And I feel like I'm able to tell everyone what I've been keeping on the down low since September.

But I'll see.

ABANDONMENT

Last couple of questions combined in one because the rest is too religious for me and I am not a religious person anyway. This will be the end of it.

When will you be good enough for you? Is there some breaking point where you will accept everything about yourself? What do you believe stands between you and complete happiness?

Most of my life, I thought I was never good enough for myself. That's why I try to the best I can be, but even when I try to be my best, I feel like I can push further. It's never ending. My biggest flaw probably is caring about what other people think. It's eating me away and it's stopping me from complete happiness. I don't know why other's people ridiculous judgement or opinion about me can take my happiness away. I hate it. I wish I can just lay out everything and say my reasons for what I do, but I just can't. See how pathetic this is? But I hope one day, that I can just write down whatever the heck I want to write without hesitating. One day, I am going to tell you guys everything. Because believe me, you don't know how many times I would open a new text post just to cancel it after.

And you know, I'm not really who you guys think I am. I'm just hiding so much.