ONE MORE WEEK + SERIOUS CRAP

I just got off the phone with Vivs. It was so nice to talk to her again. We were just talking about what we're going to do with our second year at UC San Diego. All she said was study. She's killing me already. That's not the point of this blog though.

The point is: we only have one more week left.

This week will surely consist of packing, shopping & more packing. It's an exciting, yet scary feeling to leave a place you call "home." Although this is going to be my second time doing this whole process all over again, I feel as if this is going to hit me a bit harder than my first. I am going to enter my second year as a single, determined & wait for the big one, independent lady. Yes, that is me. Easier said than done, ha. This whole moving thing is going to hit me hard probably because most of my friends were in high school. The people I hung out were in high school, but we are all growing up now.

I have been "stuck" in high school for a bit because it's the place where I was the happiest, gained new experiences & where I built most of my friendships from; it's where it all started. But, you can't be stuck there forever. You have to move on. And trust me, I do want to move on.

Last night's epic event made me realize so much. I cried to myself when I was in bed. I am so pathetic. Everything was hitting me & I am taking everything in not so lightly. Things are going to be different because we all have to do what we have to do in order to get to where we want to be. People are going to be busy doing their own thing. As Drake sang, "What am I doing? What am I doing? Oh yeah, that's right, I'm doin' me. I'm doin' me." Surely, many new friendships will be built, but surely enough, many will drift apart. It's just how life works.

I hate how life does this to us -___- However, reunions are going to be a blast (: That means more planning for me, which I do not mind because I lovelovelove doing it.

I hate how serious I am getting with this.

I hate how I really think about the deepest shit out there when I shouldn't be worrying about anything, but I do anyway.

I think this is one of the biggest flaws I have.

Take note how most of my serious posts are here & not on Tumblr.