See You Later

I hate saying goodbyes. I absolutely hate them. It makes me extremely sad & I get really close to tearing up, or even better, crying when I do them. I don't like to have long goodbyes because it just kills me. I'd rather have a fast, quick, painless departure.

I am taking a break from my packing spree. I hope everything fits in my van since my whole family decides to jump on the bandwagon to SD. What breaks my heart is that my dad won't be able to come. So basically tonight will the last night I will see him .. or tomorrow morning if I wake up early enough before he goes to work, I will tell him bye. Damn, I am tearing up as I type this.

I am overwhelmed because even though I have done this process before, I am entering college (again) by myself. Usually, I would have Ryan accompany me over the phone & talk to him, but I don't have that, or rather him anymore. He is doing his own thing over there. I am actually alone. It feels like I'm leaving LA with a heavy heart. I am going to miss LA.

What makes my packing official is when I take down pictures ): In my room by the mirror, there was a picture hanger & I took all of those down & slowly put them away. It breaks my heart so, so, so much. You have no idea.

In reality, SD is only 2 hours away from LA. In my opinion, that isn't far at all. I have become accustomed to the long drive already.

Summer wasn't at all what I had expected & what I learned about myself this summer is that: I am a crybaby & I am very emotional when it comes to something that disagrees with what I had originally in my mind.