TEARY-EYED

I don't really talk about this anymore, but I just felt like sharing this one.

So I am re-reading everything on my Blogger. From FS questions to the days where I actually blogged about my day.

Let me tell you, I get really teary-eyed where posts about Ryan comes up. It ranges from FS questions, AIM conversations & me talking about my time spent with him. It just makes me teary-eyed. I like to think that I am okay & most of the time I am. I don't get emotional over it anymore, but there are times where you haven't thought about it in so long that when you do, it hits you. It hits you hard like a big yellow bus just like in Mean Girls.

I don't like talking about him anymore because I don't want to "show" how weak I am. But here I am talking about this, oh well. You start pretending you're okay, that you're going to assume that you're okay. Eventually, you believe that lie you started with. I hope what I just said made sense.

But as of now, I can say that time does heal all wounds.

It just takes time. People may think I'm crazy because it has been so long, but I don't care what they say. They aren't in my shoes, they aren't me. Day by day, you just move the f on.

I have not seen him since the first week of July & summer's already over.

It has been a very long time.

But I am doing fine.

Just trying to get on with my life, but you never know what's going to happen. Shit just happens.