To be honest, I've prolonged from answering this exact question. I purposely delayed answering this because I don't like talking and rarely do and it's because I beat myself down so so so much. It hurts so much. It's freakn goddamn frustrating. It's about every negative emotion there is out there that fills me. Sadly I can't do anything about it but to just live with so much regret. Hopelessly, I just feel so helpless.
There's actually two regrets that are at the top of the chart. One is at the end/top of the chart, but the other is off the chart. If I had to pick one regret in my life, I would say the second one. It's my fault; I was in control, I blame it's entirety on myself. I deeply regret it so much, but I don't ask for forgiveness because what's done is done.
Although what kills me so damn much is that I will remember it for the rest of my life and it will haunt me to the grave. There is no doubt about that.
- Edit -
After rereading my VI post, I realized that if you were to read it in the wrong context, it may seem like I've done something out of my persona. But trust me that it wasn't something I was highly unlikely to do. No, it wasn't something sexual like a one-night stand or some shit like that. So don't think that because I am not the type to do that or anything of that sort because I find that extremely disgusting. Just laying this thought out there.
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