So I spent an unbelievable amount of time rereading all of my posts from Blogspot and that was one of intentions of making a blog in the first place; to reread what I wrote in the past and relive the moment for a bit. Seriously, those were some happy, perfect days for me.
After all that reading, my face was smiling like no other. My Blogspot was created around my Senior year in high school. So all my school work, relationships with friends and relationship with Ryan, dances, work, etc were all published. I’m so glad that I wrote it all down because I don’t know, my life back then was sooo drama-free and mothereffing joyful. I know as of right now, friendships aren’t the same anymore. I was reading on how some of the people I’m not okay with right now, we had such a good relationship back then. But now, what happened? I miss my friendships. I don’t even know how it got this bad. But after all that reading, I felt like I was friends with them again! But in reality, we’re not even friends anymore. Trust me, I know we’re not. Back then, I really thought they were gna be my friends till the end! Till my wedding day! I really thought that this is the group that I’m going to grow up with and go on trips with, do everything with! I really, really thought this. But up to this point, thinking about how I thought THAT group was going to for sure attend my wedding and all that future jazz, it has been narrowed down to only THREE. And what sucks is that, those three people aren’t even from that group of friends whom I thought was gna be my “friends till the end” type. Well, except Janice. But I do really miss those days where we (that group) spent talking about our lives, playing tennis, talking about boys’ sexual doings (HAHAHAHA!), college, dances, math analysis, 5pm hangouts, relationships, pushing someone to do something, etc. Those were really good days and that’s why I still consider my junior and senior year to be my perfect years. Everything was so perfect and happy. I was on top of the world. Everyone was happy and fuck, lets be honest here, drama-free and happy. No shit was given back then. But here we are, apart and not talking to each other. What the eff happened?! I miss all of us being retards and enjoying days where we spent not giving a eff about anything.
I effing miss you guys. I really do. I just want all of US back, is that so hard to ask for? I still have mad love for all of you.
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