I really do, it's just I don't know how to start. Breaking the ice about our situation or problem is just so uneasy. First of all, I don't even know if they're feeling/thinking the same thing as I am. Do they even want to mend our friendship? Do they even care? Do they even want me in their life again? I don't know. That's why I'm so hesitant about doing it. Secondly, do they even know that there's a problem with our friendship? I don't want to confront them and then they think there wasn't a problem to begin with. Then I stand there looking like an idiot. So much thoughts.
But after this year so far, I've been more outspoken about what I want and what my thoughts are about.
I want to repair the friendships because really, the people that were in my life, they made me happy. And that's what I want, happiness! I'm not saying that I'm not happy now, because I am, but I feel like they could add to it. And on the real though, my happiness hasn't been at it's maximum as it used to be. My max was when I was with them.
So yes, I really want us to be okay. But I just don't know how to start or confront the other individual(s) about it. However, some of them are a lost cause. I can't really do anything but to leave it the way it is now. But I can't really focus on that right now until finals are over. However during my spring break, I hope that I have the balls to say what's on my mind and hopefully, things will be okay and not the exact opposite. Easier said than done though.
Good luck.
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